Sunday, October 3, 2010

Weigh day...

It's been a while since "weigh day" put a smile on my face.... 195.8. Would like it to be on the other side of the "5" but I'll take what I can get with no argument. It haven't seen that number in over a year. I briefly visited the other side of 195 a couple of years ago. By briefly, I mean for about as long as it took for me to say I was that size. Then, I breathed, had a glass of water, ate a rice cake (you know, that dry crap), or something.

So, maybe this is a sign of good things to come.

That would be nice.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010


Not bad, considering six days in Jamaica. I can handle that. In fact, I'm actually quite happy about that number.

Had an EKG today and have a thallium stress test and echo cardiogram scheduled for next week. I haven't been feeling quite up to snuff, and my blood pressure has been up a bit, so decided it was time to see my cardiologist again. I was supposed to do the thallium thing about six months ago but I think I was taking care of Ron and canceled it. But, now I'm not feeling great so decided I better not put it off. He increased my blood pressure medicine and said that HRT can cause a slight increase in blood pressure. It's not sky-high, but it's not in the preferred "normal" range, either. He also said that my mitral valve prolapse could have gotten worse with the amount of stress that I've been under.

So... we shall see what transpires.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010


Not a bad start to a Sunday morning... I was happy to see that number on the scales. That meant that I am still headed in the right direction.

After my weigh-in, Keith and I headed to KCMO to a surprise birthday party for my mom. She'll be 80 this Friday and we wanted to do something special for her. My sister, Kris, put the whole thing together and I just did a little helping with ideas - the kind of "do you think this, or do you think this?" And, all I had to do was say which "this" sounded better. It was a great party. My mom was surprised and very touched that we were all there PLUS Kris had sent invitations to some of mom's former co-workers and she had several of the ladies show up. It was great.

It only cost me one pound... 197 yesterday and today. But the week isn't over so I have a chance to get back down to the 196...

Then - next week is JAMAICA. Wonder how I can get through six days in Jamaica and not gain any weight.

Don't see that happening but I will be very careful. V-E-R-Y C-A-R-E-F-U-L.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010


the scales are finally starting to move down a bit. {sigh} my own darn fault they weren't but i just had too much on my plate and on my mind.

i haven't been to exercise but a few times since ron had his surgery. i don't want to go at night and leave him alone for any longer than he has to be so i've just been coming home. i should at least start walking in the neighborhood again now that it's starting to cool off a bit. i'm lazy. i get home and i just really want to put my feet up. not conducive to losing weight.

life in the fast lane...

Monday, July 19, 2010


weight this morning. with all that's going on, i can live with that.

it's been a stressful month. i won't even begin to try to catch up this blog with all that's going on. you'll just have to take my word for it or go read my other one ( if you're not already.

i'm tired, stressed, and just about done-in. dealing with a spoiled beyotch of a niece (by marriage), on top of everything else. this "girl" is 43 years old and acting like she's 5 or 6. i'd like to not be very nice... lol!

Monday, June 28, 2010

No great updates

It's been a couple of weeks and life is about the same. Ron had surgery last week. The foot is - well, it is what it is. I'm taking him back to the doctor tomorrow to have it re-checked because I don't like how it looks.

I've done a great job of self-sabotage. I haven't followed my own diet plan, haven't done what I set out to do, and haven't lost any weight. But, I did get to the YMCA four days in a row week before last. Last week, I made it Monday and Tuesday. This week - I'm not sure.

I had someone give me an older recumbent exercise bike for Ron (it's a Kathy Ireland brand). It's not great, but it is functional. I used it a bit last night. The resistance is tough, no matter how much I loosen it, so it may need to have some WD-40 applied.

I'm lowering my expectations of myself for the next few weeks. I need to relax and de-stress over the fact that Amy is getting married on an exotic beach in two months. I need to just not worry today or tomorrow about how I'm going to look in eight weeks. I just need to do what I need to do.

God, help me! I still need to get my passport!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010


weight today was 202.8

i'm good with that.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Exercise routine

Started going to the YMCA last week and only made it a couple of days. Not a great start, but at least it's a start.

Yesterday, Amy and I went and did a few laps around the gym and then headed over to the 30 minute circuit training. I think that is going to be my goal. It's right next door to where I work so I can go right after. It takes 45 minutes to do the warm up and circuit training. Then, I can cool down for a few minutes, get my stuff and head home.

I'd like to add in some time for the hot tub and maybe the swimming pool but I don't think I really have time for that right now and still get home at a reasonable time to fix Ron dinner.

I haven't weighed in a few days. I need a battery for my scales.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Hit the Y yesterday

walked around the track for 10 minutes and then hit the treadmill for 10 minutes. then, i did the "express workout," which lasts 30 minutes. i was very sore today.

i would have worked out today, but we're having a garage sale on saturday and i worked out in the garage last night AND tonight getting stuff ready for saturday. lots of work. lots of work.

i took the battery out of my scales to put it in the radio for ron. so, i have to get a new battery before i can tell what my weight it.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

grocery store

i hate going to the grocery store. it is so expensive to eat foods that are healthy. but, we now have some things in the house that ron can get to and eat. now, if he just will.

i'm not doing too well in the "healthy eating and exercise" arena. went to the Y yesterday after work and realized i didn't have a lock for the locker. couldn't leave my purse in the car because of theft there, so i ended up leaving. was going to go today, but had to pick up isaiah and go to the grocery store. so, tomorrow it is and i already have my lock in my bag. i am ready to go.

breakfast today was a meal replacement shake, as was lunch. supper was a hamburger from mcdonalds because i didn't get anything eaten before i left for the store. tonight, i've had a snack size ice cream cup (blue bell 170 calories - and very good; worth every calorie!). i just ate a piece of bread with blackberry jam (hungry and didn't want to have a low blood sugar over night).

tomorrow we shall see what the day brings.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

holiday weekend

got on the scales after the holiday weekend and they didn't change - up or down - for the weekend. that was good.

i'm sick. i'm also grazing and eating everything i can get my hands on. nothing sounds good and nothing seems to satisfy. so, i am really trying to be conscious of what i have around here to snack on. right now, we don't have much and i really need to go to the store.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Saturday morning

It's been a tough week. Ron had surgery, and came home too early, his wound care was more than I bargained for, I got sick, etc. etc. etc.

I didn't do too great at watching what I ate. I either ate too much, not enough, the wrong stuff, or a combination of all. I ordered a dress to wear to my daughter's wedding. It's a size that I did NOT want to order (David's bridal does run a bit odd in their sizing; different styles were different sizes - odd) but it is a style that can be taken in relatively easily. I have until August 1 to get to a size for them to work with.

My weight today was 204.4, which is down from earlier in the week. Not bad for having such a crapfest for a week. Next week - my goal is to do a better job in watching what I'm doing. That includes drinking more water (I did have a couple of days where I got in 32+ oz, which is a major accomplishment for me) and walking more. Monday, Ron has afternoon appointments so I can walk in the morning; Tuesday, he has an appointment with the surgeon, but I don't remember when so not sure when I can get the walking in - plus, I pick up Isaiah at latchkey on Tuesdays so I can't do anything right after work; Wednesday, I don't have ANY outside appointments, so can do the walking at any point; Thursday, Ron has afternoon appointments and then Thursday evening, I'm flying to Seattle. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday - I'll be in the Seattle area to see my son and his family; Monday (Memorial Day) I'll be flying back home.

I've been sick in bed (and sofa) for the last two days so my eating yesterday and today are less than desirable. Hopefully, I will feel better tomorrow so I can get back into the swing of things.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Well, hell...

Scales today said 204.4 - so not bad.
Food today sucked.

Breakfast: nothing; I was busy and forgot to eat
Lunch: a bag of Ranch flavored Corn nuts - the whole bag (400 cal) and 4 mini powdered sugar donuts.
Snack: cereal and the last of my skim milk.
Dinner: 8 pizza rolls (maybe 10) and a hot fudge sundae from Sonic

Lots of sodium for me today! Bet the scales will not like it tomorrow.

No exercise today or really for this week, unless you count loading and unloading Ron's scooter and lifting/lowering the wheel chair ramp. That is heavy and it is extra work. Plus, I have to lower the ramp, load him and the scooter, drive to the doctor's office, unload him, go park the car, come back and get him and take him to the office. Bring him back to the door, go get the car, and then reload him. At home, unload him and raise the ramp. That is quite the workout all by itself.

He's not doing too well from his surgery and mostly sleeps. I take him food and try to eat some myself when I take him something. Not too interested in eating "food" this week. I've been on the stress-snack diet. It's got to get better than this!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Weighed this morning


not a number i'm happy with at all. this number means that i've managed to gain between 5 and 10 pounds over the winter. i know it doesn't sound too bad, but i was in the process of HEADING DOWN and had no desire to go back up. i NEVER wanted to see my weight start with a "2" again.

but... such is life. there's too much going on and there has been too much going on for me to focus too much on me. although things around here haven't changed, i realize that the only way i'm going to be able to stay sane and keep my head above water is to start focusing some energy on me.

i looked at kris' zumba video this morning. i cannot dance. at all. hideous. but, i danced to that video this morning. i didn't do the whole thing but it was a start. my version of dancing is much less coordinated than anyone in that video, that's for sure. think "toddler" dancing with jerky movements and out-of-time steps. yep, that's me! heck, even kate g. dances better than i do - and that's not saying much. lol!

i'm in a lower case sort of mood today so that's why nothing is properly capitalized. as a professional writer, i don't often get the luxury of just "typing" and not having to make sure everything is proper.

breakfast - fiber one cereal with 1 c skim milk
lunch - banana and special k fruit crisps
dinner - i have no idea.

liquid intake: 2 cups of coffee

see a problem with this picture? yeah, i do, too. just not sure how to fix it yet. i'll get there.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Day One

Technically, today should have been the first day of this journey. But, my husband had surgery today so it was not a day of dieting or exercising. I hope that tomorrow will be better.

My daughter is getting married September 1, 2010 in Jamaica. Although I've lost about 50 pounds since 2008, I've also gained about 6-7 back. It's called stress. I'm one of those people who eats when stressed and my life lately has been VERY stressful. I also have to cover those stresses - mostly my husband's health.

This week may not be "the" week that I get it all together. I honestly don't even know where to start. I have no clue what to do for me or how to focus on me. I haven't spent enough time taking care of "me" to really know how to do it.

I hope that I haven't waited too long to find myself...