Saturday, May 22, 2010

Saturday morning

It's been a tough week. Ron had surgery, and came home too early, his wound care was more than I bargained for, I got sick, etc. etc. etc.

I didn't do too great at watching what I ate. I either ate too much, not enough, the wrong stuff, or a combination of all. I ordered a dress to wear to my daughter's wedding. It's a size that I did NOT want to order (David's bridal does run a bit odd in their sizing; different styles were different sizes - odd) but it is a style that can be taken in relatively easily. I have until August 1 to get to a size for them to work with.

My weight today was 204.4, which is down from earlier in the week. Not bad for having such a crapfest for a week. Next week - my goal is to do a better job in watching what I'm doing. That includes drinking more water (I did have a couple of days where I got in 32+ oz, which is a major accomplishment for me) and walking more. Monday, Ron has afternoon appointments so I can walk in the morning; Tuesday, he has an appointment with the surgeon, but I don't remember when so not sure when I can get the walking in - plus, I pick up Isaiah at latchkey on Tuesdays so I can't do anything right after work; Wednesday, I don't have ANY outside appointments, so can do the walking at any point; Thursday, Ron has afternoon appointments and then Thursday evening, I'm flying to Seattle. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday - I'll be in the Seattle area to see my son and his family; Monday (Memorial Day) I'll be flying back home.

I've been sick in bed (and sofa) for the last two days so my eating yesterday and today are less than desirable. Hopefully, I will feel better tomorrow so I can get back into the swing of things.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Well, hell...

Scales today said 204.4 - so not bad.
Food today sucked.

Breakfast: nothing; I was busy and forgot to eat
Lunch: a bag of Ranch flavored Corn nuts - the whole bag (400 cal) and 4 mini powdered sugar donuts.
Snack: cereal and the last of my skim milk.
Dinner: 8 pizza rolls (maybe 10) and a hot fudge sundae from Sonic

Lots of sodium for me today! Bet the scales will not like it tomorrow.

No exercise today or really for this week, unless you count loading and unloading Ron's scooter and lifting/lowering the wheel chair ramp. That is heavy and it is extra work. Plus, I have to lower the ramp, load him and the scooter, drive to the doctor's office, unload him, go park the car, come back and get him and take him to the office. Bring him back to the door, go get the car, and then reload him. At home, unload him and raise the ramp. That is quite the workout all by itself.

He's not doing too well from his surgery and mostly sleeps. I take him food and try to eat some myself when I take him something. Not too interested in eating "food" this week. I've been on the stress-snack diet. It's got to get better than this!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Weighed this morning


not a number i'm happy with at all. this number means that i've managed to gain between 5 and 10 pounds over the winter. i know it doesn't sound too bad, but i was in the process of HEADING DOWN and had no desire to go back up. i NEVER wanted to see my weight start with a "2" again.

but... such is life. there's too much going on and there has been too much going on for me to focus too much on me. although things around here haven't changed, i realize that the only way i'm going to be able to stay sane and keep my head above water is to start focusing some energy on me.

i looked at kris' zumba video this morning. i cannot dance. at all. hideous. but, i danced to that video this morning. i didn't do the whole thing but it was a start. my version of dancing is much less coordinated than anyone in that video, that's for sure. think "toddler" dancing with jerky movements and out-of-time steps. yep, that's me! heck, even kate g. dances better than i do - and that's not saying much. lol!

i'm in a lower case sort of mood today so that's why nothing is properly capitalized. as a professional writer, i don't often get the luxury of just "typing" and not having to make sure everything is proper.

breakfast - fiber one cereal with 1 c skim milk
lunch - banana and special k fruit crisps
dinner - i have no idea.

liquid intake: 2 cups of coffee

see a problem with this picture? yeah, i do, too. just not sure how to fix it yet. i'll get there.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Day One

Technically, today should have been the first day of this journey. But, my husband had surgery today so it was not a day of dieting or exercising. I hope that tomorrow will be better.

My daughter is getting married September 1, 2010 in Jamaica. Although I've lost about 50 pounds since 2008, I've also gained about 6-7 back. It's called stress. I'm one of those people who eats when stressed and my life lately has been VERY stressful. I also have to cover those stresses - mostly my husband's health.

This week may not be "the" week that I get it all together. I honestly don't even know where to start. I have no clue what to do for me or how to focus on me. I haven't spent enough time taking care of "me" to really know how to do it.

I hope that I haven't waited too long to find myself...